Book Review: The Storyteller’s Secret by Sejal Badani – 4 stars

Don’t let anyone tell you that this book is formulaic and trite! I’ve read some other reviews and audiences are decidedly split: 1) Those who adore this book and 2) Those who thought it was predictable. I’m usually one to leave the opposing opinion alone but, in this case, I have to say, I heartily disagree with the latter group. And, I’m extremely sensitive to overused and predictable tropes!

I found The Storyteller’s Secret to be a rich, thoughtfully woven generational tale that touched my heart and completely held my attention. Badani frames the story from Jaya’s (a modern, married 2nd generation American of Indian descent) perspective and goes on to tell the story of three generations of Indian women (Amisha, Lena and Jaya). We learn early in the book that Jaya has suffered several miscarriages and its through the lens of that pain that we begin to learn about her family’s history.

Jaya’s relationship with her mother, Lena, is a loving but strained one. Her mother is attentive but closed off…Jaya never really feels that they know one another. Coincidentally, as Jaya’s marriage begins to fail, she learns that Lena has received a letter from her estranged grandfather in India. He is dying and wants to see Lena. Lena adamantly refuses. In her grief and loss, Jaya decides to go instead.

When Jaya arrives in India, instead of her grandfather, she meets the family’s servant (Ravi) who served her grandmother for many years. Her grandmother died when her mother was a small child and left Ravi entrusted with her story and a number of family secrets. Half of the book is told through Ravi’s story sharing with Jaya…the other half gives an account of Jaya’s current troubles. The time that Jaya spends with Ravi and the information she learns about the women who have preceded her changes the way Jaya sees her mother, her heritage and her modern life.

I love the way that Badani weaves Jaya’s current story into her mother and grandmother’s histories. She does an excellent job describing Jaya’s triumphs and pains: you can feel Jaya’s grief as you learn of the babies she has lost and how those losses have impacted her marriage. Badani depiction of the two older women during Gandhi’s time in India is equally powerful. Amisha and Lena come up against a number of very difficult decisions/circumstances in their lives and the quandaries that face are absolutely palpable to the reader.

Some of the reviews I’ve read about The Storyteller’s Secret focus on a claim that Badani gets some facts wrong about historical India, its culture and Hinduism. I have travelled to India and lived there for a short time but am no expert on the country. Unless you are intimately familiar with all of the details of the Indian culture (one reviewer complained that the book depicts a child begging as Jaya gets exits the airplane but asserts that there is airport security that would ensure that never happened), I feel strongly that any departures from reality don’t change the nature or quality of the story and probably only matter to those who feel the need for their fiction to never waiver from the absolute truth. To my mind, fiction is fiction and the author is permitted to take liberties!

I utterly enjoyed the female characters in the story. I thought they were rich and nuanced…brave and strong and vulnerable. I cared about what happened to them and appreciated Badani’s willingness to show us a variety of different women taking different approaches to the confines of their cultures. I fell in love with Ravi…he’s clearly a good man from the ‘untouchable’ caste who is wise, ambitious and incredibly funny. His relationship with Amisha is as touching as it is unexpected. Badani allows the two characters to become extremely close without feeling compelled to make their relationship an amorous one…that development, in my mind, would have been a difficult-to-believe trope!

Badani does push the boundaries of the traditional mores in Indian within this book. I wondered a few times whether or not, in 1930s India, Amisha could really have gotten away with some of the escapades she embarks on in the book. I also questioned whether or not Jaya could really have eaten in a restaurant with an ‘untouchable’ in modern India. Nevertheless, as I mentioned above, any liberties of fiction that Badani took with her story did not detract from its power for me. She has built a story that captured my interest and characters that I came to know and grew to care about.

I found the end of the book quite satifying, though it is has met with mixed reviews from folks online. Jaya is given an opportunity to both assist Ravi’s family and make some of her own dreams come true. She has the means and desire to do those things and takes action. Some have described her assistance as indicative of a ‘brown savior’ complex…but Badani’s depiction of Jaya throughout the book made me believe that her situation and circumstances were just right for her to be able to make those decisions. I finished the book feeling that, given the same set of circumstances and an equal amount of resources, I would like to think I would have made the same decision. When an author creates a character with whom you can really relate in that way, you know they’ve done something right!

I’ve read reviews that compared The Storyteller’s Secret to a Harlequin romance or a Bollywood soap opera. Perhaps I’ve not encountered either of those things enough to know better, but I don’t agree. I love fiction that contains a strong story, well-told and rich, nuanced and empassioned characters. Badani delivered all that, and more, with The Storyteller’s Secret!

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TV Show Review: Riverdale for Tweens? – 3.5 stars

I thought I’d switch gears a bit and give some insight into things we do in our house besides read books! My 11-year old son and I also tend to find popular tv shows (some old, some new) and binge watch them together – 1 episode per evening. I think this tradition started with Survivor when he was about 9 and progressed through Lost, Lost in Space, Stranger Things, The Umbrella Academy and others but we generally have at least one series going at any given time. While he tends to watch movies with his dad, he and I seem more drawn to tv series – we like following the characters and having a consistent story to engage in over a long period of time. It’s a way (outside of books and some other activities) for us to unwind and bond each day.

Don’t get me wrong, there are definitely challenges to finding tv series to binge watch with an 11-year old. Primarily, I find that:

  1. It’s difficult to know what’s going to be appropriate for an 11-year old prior to starting to watch, and
  2. It’s difficult to ensure that, if I find a show that’s appropriate for an 11-year old, it’s actually engaging for both of us! I definitely don’t want to spend weeks watching a show I can’t stand just because it’s appropriate for his viewing!

All that being said, this spring and summer, we’ve been dedicated to Riverdale. Let me say up front: unless you are dedicated to some pretty open conversations with your tween, Riverdale is not for you! He has a number of friends who watch it and I’m not sure how their parents handle it…I wouldn’t allow him to watch this show alone as I spend a fair bit of time asking him to pause it so I can explain rather mature concepts and we can have conversations about such topics as drugs, sex, gender identity, sexual orientation, gang violence, etc. Given the storylines that Riverdale has embarked upon this season, I’ve also had to devote some time to talking about believability. While it’s definitely on the mature side of what I think is appropriate for my tween, Riverdale ticks most of my boxes for entertaining, appropriate viewing for both of us. *Note: it’s very important to me, however, that we watch this show together. I would never allow my son to watch Riverdale alone…there are just too many controversial topics that require guidance and discussion.

For those who don’t know, Riverdale airs on the CW (I believe at 8pm EDT on Wednesdays) but we wait until the season has concluded and watch it on Netflix. It covers the story of Archie, Jughead, Veronica and Betty and their escapades in high school and Riverdale proper. Warning: These are not the Archie, Jughead, Veronica and Betty of the comics of your youth. These are teenagers with a great deal more freedom and agency than they should have. 🙂 Nonetheless, my son and I really enjoy watching the four main characters (plus a host of really interesting side characters like Josie, Kevin, Cheryl and all of the parents) get in and out of trouble. Each season focuses on a ‘mystery’ that the teens get involved in solving and trust me, these are some strange and twisted mysteries! Everybody’s a suspect and (much like Game of Thrones) you never know who is going to die (or almost die) this week!

The show is kind of like a soap opera for teens with better acting and better film quality. The love triangles and quadrangles are intense…the politics and ensuing violence are disturbing…and the lengths to which the young people go to save each other and solve the season’s mysteries are unbelievable! Riverdale is not for those looking for a healthy dose of plotline or life lesson. It’s tv candy at it’s best. The rich kids are extremely rich and the poor kids seem to be pretty well off too! Even Jughead’s (who lives in a trailer with his alcoholic father) ‘poverty’ looks pretty attractive in this series.

My son and I have talked several times about the fact that none of the Riverdale characters are ‘good guys.’ Each character is intrinsicly flawed in one way or another and I’m sure to point out their misdeeds whenever possible. I think it’s important to point out that likable and ‘good’ are not necessarily the same thing. My son doesn’t seem to have a problem differentiating between the characters popularity and their moral compasses but, if that’s a concern for you, I would shy away from this show.

What can I say? We enjoy it. It gives us plenty of fodder for discussion about topics that I feel are super important for discussion. As my son becomes a teen, these topics will, I’m sure, get harder and harder to engage in so I’m taking this opportunity where I have his attention to draw lessons (almost all negative) from the Riverdale characters’ behavior. It’s a fun romp…we both recognize the parts of the show that are incredible (Veronica owns a diner and a speakeasy, Archie steals a car despite the fact that he’s supposedly never driven and doesn’t have a license) but are willing to suspend belief for the sheer entertainment value of the escapades. We aren’t prudes in this house, as you can probably tell. And, as long as you’re willing to allow your tween to view and discuss some mature topics with you, Riverdale might be just the ticket for spending some time enjoying a show with your son/daughter as well!

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Middle Grade Book Review: Wish by Barbara O’Connor – 4.5 stars

Some people just have an amazing grasp on what it means to be genuine and to be human. Barbara O’Connor is one of those people. Wish is the story of Charlie, an 11-year old girl from Raleigh, NC, whose father is in a ‘correctional facility’ and whose mother is having trouble ‘getting back on her feet.’ (We gather, as adults reading the text, that her mother might struggle with depression or alcoholism as we learn that she is disengaged and spends most of her time in bed or on the couch. Young readers may likely only understand that Charlie’s mother is somehow unwell) Charlie is sent to live with her mother’s sister, Bertha and her husband, Gus in the Blue Ridge Mountains of North Carolina while her older sister, Jackie gets to stay with a friend’s family in Raleigh.

Initially, the transition is incredibly difficult for Charlie. She’s lonely, misses her sister and sees the little town of Colby as a backwater filled with small-town ‘hillbillies.’ She struggles with her temper and with fitting in at school and really doesn’t feel that she belongs. She has a habit of making a secret wish everyday and searches throughout the day, every day, to find something to wish on (a first star, a dandelion, 3 birds on a wire.) The reader gets the sense, throughout the book, that Charlie wishes only to be returned to her family in Raleigh. Then, she meets Wishbone…a stray dog that she works to lure in and make her own. Her relationships with Wishbone, a local boy named Howard and Gus and Bertha begin to change her perspective and ultimately her life.

O’Connor’s characters are real, flawed and incredibly lovable. She doesn’t hold back from depicting the Colby ‘hillbillies’ just as they are: they have furniture on their porch and cars in their yard. But, she also perfectly depicts the love that exists in that town and in those homes and shows the reader (rather than telling him/her) why belongings and appearances aren’t what matters. Howard, the friend that Charlie reluctantly makes, has an ‘up down walk’ and a heart of gold. It would be difficult to read about this Owen Meany-like boy without falling in love with his spirit and his heart.

Bertha and Gus are good, simple people and Charlie is a amazing little girl who has simply experienced too much in her young life. If you’ve ever lived in a small town, you will recognize the Odom (Howard’s) family, the neighbors from church and Scrappy (Charlie’s incarcerated father.) Even Jackie, Charlie’s slightly rough-around-the-edges older sister is depicted with both street smarts and heart. Somehow O’Connor manages to depict the failings of each of her characters without abandoning their spirits…you’ll clearly understand what changes Charlie’s mind about Colby by the end of the book.

Wish’s plot is also extremely believable. While it would be easy to make this book trite and formulaic, O’Connor resists the urge and allows her characters to behave in ways both heroic, fearful and embarrassing. She doesn’t shy away from showing the vulnerabilities of each of her characters…you can see the difficulty of Charlie’s situation in her bravado, Jackie’s bragging and Bertha’s inability to stop talking! O’Connor’s depiction of the quandary that faces this little girl is raw without being too painful and hopeful without being sappy. Don’t be surprised, however, if some of Charlie’s triumphs and pain bring a tear to your eye!

As an adult, I read this book with relish because of the delightful characterizations of these small-town folks. I cared about Charlie and wanted to see what would happen to her. While I feel strongly that young readers will also feel that kinship with O’Connor’s characters, I also believe that the story and the lessons (‘Don’t judge a book by its cover. Home is where your heart is. Thank God for unanswered prayers.’) will resonate soundly with their sense of adventure and justice. While this may not be a book that I would have picked up to read by myself, I highly recommend finding a young person with whom to read it: any excuse will do to submerse yourself in Charlie’s story! You won’t regret it!

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Camp Review: Part 2 – Camp Woodward – Action Sports Camp for My PANDA?

As promised, I wanted to provide you with additional information about our experience at Camp Woodward now that my PANDA’S week has completed. You can review my initial post about camp prep and Day 1 here:

I’ll admit, Spencer didnt’ make it through the whole week. Homesickness kicked in around Tuesday morning and by Wednesday bedtime, it was just too much for him. You have to remember though, he’s 11, this was his first time away from home with non-family and PANDAS anxiety definitely plays a part in how he responds in any situation. So, net/net, my opinion of Camp Woodward has not changed a bit and I’m sure we’ll be working to ensure that he can go back next year and stay longer!

In my last update, I had dropped him off on Sunday and had received one text (exhilarated) text on Sunday evening. I received a few additional texts on Monday: he loved the scooter instruction he received that morning and had gone out of his way to schedule a session of Go-Kart racing ($6.00) which he really enjoyed. Apparently, he had also signed up for paintball ($10.00) but decided it was a little too intense once he arrived at the paintball field and gifted his opportunity to a friend that was with him. I was perfectly ok with that – it’s up to him to decide what he can handle and what he can’t!

Monday night was the all-camp bonfire. By Tuesday morning, I had heard that the bonfire was GREAT although I hadn’t accounted for the fact that Spencer’s diet won’t accommodate s’mores so he felt a little chumped. When we do it again, I will be sure to provide gluten free graham crackers and dairy/dye-free marshmallows and chocolate so that he can fully participate in that activity.

Speaking of food…Spencer wanted to make sure that I mentioned that all of the food at Camp Woodward was excellent! I had spoken to Jan (who runs the dining hall) prior to our arrival and she assured me that there were plenty of gluten and dairy free options that he could request. He apparently had a lot of success doing so and, actually became friends with JoJo at the Grill (turns out, he’s the GM’s son) because he was spending a lot of time with him requesting specific foods!

Tuesday morning is when things began to take a turn for the worse. His first text to me Tuesday morning indicated that he was feeling homesick. Although he said he slept well, he had apparently been lonely at bedtime and was, again Tuesday morning, missing home. Interestingly, he never once mentioned coming home but just wanted to touchbase and let me know how he was feeling. He embarked on his day of instruction and photos assuring me that he was going to be fine.

About mid-morning, I received another text…apparently his homesickness was getting worse. I told him I’d find someone for him to talk to and called the camp to ask what I should do. I was assured that there was someone who could talk to Spencer immediately and that he would do so, and then call me back. About an hour later, I received a call from Ernie, one of the scooter directors who indicated that he had spoken to Spence, spent some time with him and that he was doing just fine. Unfortunately, having kept up a good show while communicating with my kiddo, I got pretty emotional on the phoe with Ernie…he reassured me that having a homesick can be pretty emotional for a lot of parents. It’s a pretty helpless feeling and I wasn’t the first parent who had cried a bit when talking to him. I left the call with Ernie feeling much better and confident that Spence would make it through the day!

Apparently, the rest of the day went pretty well. Spence finished his instruction for the day and participated in the horseback riding ($32.00) that we had scheduled for him at check-in. He loved that experience and, by evening, was texting me funny comments about having ridden a ‘Charlie horse.’ (His horse’s name was Charlie.) I think exhaustion from all of the activity started to get to him then as I didn’t hear anything else Tuesday night and learned the next day that he had fallen asleep before lights out at 9:45 pm.

Wednesday morning was pretty much the beginning of the end. He woke up homesick and began texting me right away. I suggested that he talk to one of the counselors but had little success in getting him to do that. I encouraged him to have some breakfast and attend instruction and assumed that, as soon as he got busy, he’d be fine. Unfortunately, mid-morning I received a text (he wasn’t supposed to be using his phone but was upset) saying that a kid was giving him a hard time during instruction (running his scooter into Spencer’s legs?) and that he didn’t know what to do and his homesickness was really bad. I wasn’t sure how to help him, so I called the camp again. I spoke to the same woman I had spoken to the day before and she assured me she’d get the homesickness counselor to go see him. She asked if I wanted a return call. Having been very satisfied with how the situation resolved itself the day before, I declined.

At lunch, I received a text from Spencer indicating that ‘Big White’ (whom I would later meet as Matthew…a soft-spoken Scooter Director who looks like the lead singer from FMLAO) had taken care of the situation with the other kid and promised to have dinner and ride with Spencer at 5. I assumed that all would be well at that point. Unfortunately, it appears that, after lunch, the campers have a fair bit of time that is unstructured. While there are TONS of activities that they can sign up for, Spencer forgot that he had registered for a ropes course and spent the afternoon hanging around and occasionally riding the tracks with friends.

Having a lot of unstructured time made homesickness worse for him. By 5pm, I was receiving more urgent texts and crying phone calls (from the cabin bathroom because he didn’t want anyone to see him) telling me how sad and homesick he was. Apparently, a situation had also transpired in the canteen where a kid had tried to make some other kids fall on the stairs and Spencer had pushed him. While the push resolved the situation (the kid knocked it off and went away) my kid is one who is just as traumatized by having to stick up for himself as he is by being bothered by another kid. It only compounded his desire to get away.

Throughout Wednesday evening, I continued to get texts from Spencer. Dinner was over and most campers were at the all-camp Hip Hop Dance Battle. Spencer had wandered down there but wasn’t particularly interested so he had come back to the cabin and was hanging out on the porch alone. His homesickness was incredibly ramped up and I couldn’t get him calmed down. I asked him several times to go find his counselor (Barrett), or Ernie or Big White but he claimed not to be able to find them and continued to get more upset. At the time, I was pretty concerned that he couldn’t find a counselor for a 2-3 hour period but I later learned that Spencer should have gone to the skate office for help! The counselors have assigned duties or off time in the evening but all campers are instructed that they can find a counselor at the skate office at any time. Either Spencer didn’t hear that or he just really wanted to go home because he never mentioned that to me and, as his parent, I was never given that information.

After 3 hours of increasingly escalated texts and phone calls, I decided that enough was enough. He wasn’t happy, it was getting worse and he was starting to make comments like ‘I’m just not sure I can keep doing this!’ I know my kiddo’s limitations and just couldn’t imagine doing 3 more nights of this kind of trauma for him. On Tuesday and early Wednesday, I had hoped that exhaustion and the time of week (newness wearing off but still several days to go) were contributing to the problem and that it would get better. By Wednesday evening, I realized that it wasn’t going to. It was also getting later (9pm) and I knew that it was going to take me 40 minutes to drive to camp. I didn’t want to be moving him out by flashlight in a cabin full of kids who were trying to sleep!

I finally offered to come and pick him up. He initially declined but then called back and took me up on the offer. I told him I needed to call the camp office and let them know. When I called, Rachel asked that I speak to Casey, the homesickness counselor, before coming out. I let Spence know that I would wait for Casey’s call and then head out.

After an hour of not having heard from Casey (as it turns out, he was in charge of dodge ball that night and didn’t get my message) I decided it was time to pull the plug. I called Rachel back and told her I was on my way and instructed Spencer to pack up his stuff. Casey did call me back but, by that time, I was already 15 minutes out from camp.

When I arrived at camp, Casey was waiting for me and had helped Spencer gather all his belongings. Spence was waiting for me in the main office. Rachel suggested that I sign him overnight and let him sleep at the hotel with me…that would give him the opportunity change his mind in the morning if he wished. While I took her up on the offer, Spencer teared up every time we mentioned it so I was pretty sure he wasn’t coming back.

I asked about the absence of a counselor for 2-3 hours that evening and that’s when I learned about the skate office and the availability of counselor there at all times. Rachel pulled Big White into the office to explain the situation to me and he was extremely apologetic about the miscommunication and assured me that he would have helped Spence if he had known he was struggling. Everyone I met was extremely professional, kind and supportive of Spencer.

Spencer and I headed back to the hotel…we didn’t arrive until just before midnight and I had to insist on him showering before bed (he hadn’t showered any of the days he was at camp…apparently not uncommon…and reeked of bug spray!) so we didn’t get to sleep until 12:30 am. Spencer slept over 9 hours (super uncommon for him) and woke up certain that he was done with camp for the year. I was super impressed that Casey called just after Spencer woke just to check on him and find out if he wanted to come back. I also received a call from Richie, the GM’s husband (co-GM?) wanting to check in on Spence and make sure I knew how to receive the photo package that I had paid for. Both guys were incredibly kind and disappointed that Spencer couldn’t stay at camp but assured me that these kinds of things happen. In fact, Casey let me know that one of the current lead counselors at Woodward had only made it to Tuesday on his first trip to camp!

As our day progressed on Thursday, we decided to stay in PA one more day and hang out at the hotel pool and see a movie. I wanted to make sure that Spencer’s trip ended on a high note and that he had positive feelings about Camp Woodward overall. He expressed to me several times during the day that he absolutely LOVED Camp Woodward and was super bummed that the ‘homsickness had gotten’ him.

We drove home Friday morning and, while on the road, received the 16 photos that were part of our photo package ($199…I misstated that they were $250 in my last post.) The pictures were incredible and you could definitely see how much Spencer’s skill at scootering had improved in only 4 days!

Spencer has continued to talk about his experience at Camp Woodward, the friends he made and the things he accomplished. He took on the asphalt pump track and the mega ramp (which looks terrifying to me) with success and learned a lot both about scootering skills and himself! I wouldn’t trade this experience for anything despite the fact that it was dramatic and exhausting for both me and him. I think he had a fantastic learning experience and grew a great deal! I also don’t regret picking him up…it was time to stop the torture…he’s a PANDAS kid and his anxiety was out of control. I don’t think it would have gotten better and I’m not convinced that there was anything I or the counselors could have done to make it work for him at that point. He had done was he was able to do and that was enough.

I learned a few important things as part of the process of taking Spence out of camp early:

1) For campers ages 7-10, Woodward offers 1/2 week camps. At 11, Spencer had aged out of the opportunity but it would probably have been the right fit for him. It also contributed a bit to his distress because some of his friends from the cabin (10-12 year olds) were 10 and left on Wednesday.

2) There is an opportunity for parents to volunteer to be ‘Camp Parents.’ Camp Parents can volunteer to be Camp Mom and Camp Dad to a cabin of 7-9 year olds, drive camp vehicles for camper pick-up, drop off and emergencies, or run the Woodward Canteen. A small portion of camp tuition is reimbursed to parents who chooses to/are chosen for these jobs. Given the way camp went for us this year, I think Spencer will be more ready next year. I also think it might be beneficial for him to have me there. Camp Parents are encouraged not to participate in their children’s activities and are not assigned to their child’s cabin but I still think that my presence would be reassuring to him and might allow him to stay a few extra days next time!

3) I needed to do a better job learning the policies and procedures at camp before drop off/my departure. Had I known about the skate office or the food at evening activities, etc. I would have been better able to guide Spencer when he was struggling. I assumed that Barrett, Spencer’s cabin counselor, would be constantly avaiable to him and his cabinmates unless a substitute counselor was present. That wasn’t the case and my ignorance left Spence in the lurch a couple of times.

4) I did the right thing by choosing to stay nearby for camp this year. I was concerned that Spencer wouldn’t make it all week or would have a medical flare so I didn’t drop him off and head 6 hours home. I camped out in a nearby hotel and was available to go get him when things became intolerable for him. While some might think that my availability (both in proximity and by phone) enabled his fear, I know my kiddo and the ‘dump and run’ just wouldn’t have worked for us. I would have ended up driving 6 hours through the night on Wednesday night. Making the decision to go get him was an extremely difficult one but I trusted my gut and I’m confident that I did the right thing. By pulling him out when I did, I left him with a positive feeling about Woodward and camp in general and I’m confident he won’t hesitate to go back next year!

Overall, I cannot say enough good things about Camp Woodward. The staff was incredibly positive, helpful and supportive and the facilities and programming are top notch! Spencer hasn’t stopped bragging about his accomplishments since we returned. I wouldn’t hesitate to sign any child up for a week of camp at Woodward and, with the right support and information in place, would highly recommend it as a place for a PANDAS kid.

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Book Review: The Jumble Sale (Adventures of the Misfit Monsters Book 1) by Lily Rose – 3 stars

The Jumble Sale, by Lily Rose is the sweet story of a number of misfit monsters who find themselves in a predicament. The protagonist, Zadi (who is part fairy, part zombie and a little bit robot) leads the charge to help them overcome their struggle: they depend upon deliveries to the junkyard for their survival and there have been no deliveries from the humans in quite some time! Faced with a motley collection of misfit monsters (with as many diverse personalities as they have body parts), an overbearing mayor and a threat to the community’s well-being, Zadi is forced to come up with a way to get everyone to work together in way that will allow them all to survive. Enter the Jumble Sale!

Rose has written a book that will appeal to middle grade and younger readers with its collection of misfit monsters who are made up of all kinds of characters. None of them are particularly scary, although the mayor is a bit of brute! The story doesn’t explore how these monsters came to be or why they live in and survive on the goods from a junkyard but it does paint a picture of a race of very small creatures who have built their own society and are existing on the cast-offs of humans.

While the rules of society for the misfit monsters have generally worked well for them in the past, the mayor’s regulations about when and how monsters can hunt in the junkyard for needed goods begin to rub when the number of deliveries dwindles to zero. Monsters begin to fight with one another and their ‘each monster for his/herself’ mentality begins to become part of the problem.

Zadi, who isn’t much for following the rules in the first place, realizes that something must be done to change the rules…but she has no real power or influence to do so and continues to have run-ins with the Mayor who punishes her for pushing the boundaries. With the help of a number of friends, Zadi comes up with a solution for the misfit monsters problem: rather than continue to fight for dwindling resources, the monsters will engage in a jumble sale where they can trade items amongst themselves. The sale will allow everyone access to the items that they need while teaching each monster how to assign and attribute value to what they make and trade.

Some lessons in the story are straightforward: Rose shows young readers that, by working together, the misfit monsters are much better off than they were when they were each fighting for themselves. Others, however, are a bit more subtle (and these were some of my favorites): In watching Zadi and her friends work with their neighbors, young readers learn a great deal about what it’s like to try to gain consensus amongst a very disperate group of people. (The subcomittee meeting that is held to determine when hunting should be allowed reminds me of the world’s worst ever PTA meeting!) Insight abounds into what it takes to get people to cooperate…listening skills, the ability to convince others and the willingness to engage in trade-offs are all part of the process!

Finally, a subtle lesson about being willing to stick your neck out for the good of the group is embedded in the story. Zadi is expected to fall in line and the misfit monsters’ society doesn’t initially value sacrifice for the greater good. But being a bit of a rebel and seeing a problem that needs to be resolved, Zadi goes forward with speaking out and standing up in front of her peers to make a change. In the end, she’s able to save the day and we see that there is value in stepping forward even when it’s scary.

I really enjoyed Rose’s depictions of the misfit monsters and the occasional character illustrations are absolutely gorgeous. The writing is occasionally off-putting…some of the grammar used is awkward and certain words are repeated unnecessarily. (How many times do we need to read the words hessian sack? What is a hessian sack? Oh! It’s a burlap bag? Ok…still. Isn’t it just a sack? Do I really need to read that it’s hessian 15 times?) I can’t be sure, but I almost felt as if the writing might have been done in the author’s second language…it was just a little stilted in places and I couldn’t seem to grasp why.

Overall, however, I was charmed by Rose’s story of Zadi and her misfit monster friends. At 84 pages, it’s a quick read with a storyline that moves along in an endearing and easy-to-follow way. Young readers will be enchanted with Zadi and her rebellious ways and amused by the cast of characters that make up her friends and neighbors. There’s something to be said for a story that can entertain while it imparts a lesson…The Jumble Sale is able to do that and more. Young readers will finish this book eagerly looking forward to the misfit monsters next adventure!

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Book Review: Hatchet by Gary Paulsen – 5 stars

I’m not sure how I’ve gotten so far in my life without reading this book, but I was definitely missing out. My son read this one for school and really enjoyed it so I decided to give it a spin! I was really glad I did. Written as a Middle Grade read, I found this book incredibly appealing as an adult: it not only includes adventure and suspense, it examines the human spirit and what it takes to survive in difficult circumstnaces. That’s a topic that anyone can enjoy reading about!

Hatchet, by Gary Paulsen, was published in 1987 and was awarded the Newbery at that time. It’s definitely a classic (How are things that were populat when I was in school now considered classics? Ugh!) and is encouraged reading in classrooms across the country. It explores the story of 13-year old Brian Robeson whose parents have recently divorced. Robeson is flying on a private, prop plane from his mother’s to his father’s house in Canada when the pilot of the plane has a heart attack and dies. The plane crashes and Brian is left alone, in the Canadian woods with the clothes on his back and a hatchet that his mother gifted to him right before take-off.

Robeson experiences the entire range of feelings that one would expect if stranded alone in the woods and Paulsen does an amazing job of keeping the reader attuned to his thoughts and feelings. Robeson experiences a number of trials as he endeavors to stay alive and healthy. Paulsen peppers the story with just enough action that the book reads like an adventure story while actually being more of a study of human capabilities and endurance.

While the tirals that Robeson is forced to face are amazing…they remain believable. It would have been easy for Paulsen to veer off into fantastical feats for a 13-year old boy. He doesn’t, however, and we see how very much Robeson struggles to find ways to survive. Even the fact that he is stranded in the woods with a hatchet doesn’t seem contrived. Robeson is protrayed as an intelligent and resourceful kid but is required to call up every one of his mental, physical and emotional resources to endure the challenges that come up in the woods.

Robeson is also not a ‘perfect’ character. He makes plenty of mistakes and experience deep and powerful shame, loneliness and despair. Paulsen allows his reader to feel the degree to which Robeson’s faith is tested while driving home the point that, even though he is only a child, he remains capable, resilient and strong! I was further impressed that Paulsen draws Robeson in such a way that he is appealing for both boys and girls. Robeson’s story of survival is one of being human…not necessarily being a ‘tough guy’ or demonstraing uber-masculinity!

I was somewhat concerned that the book’s ending would be a disappointment for me. A last-minute, unbelievable rescue and tidy happy ending would have really disenchanted me. Instead, however, Paulsen finds an ending for Robeson that feels genuine and believable…it’s hopeful without being sappy. I didn’t realize, upon my initial reading of the book, that it is based upon a true story…so I guess I should have known that actual reality would provide a satisfactory story ending of its own.

Paulsen is an incredible writer…Robeson’s surroundings are palpable – from the gaseous smells in the plane as the pilot becomes ill to the sights, sounds and smells of the wilderness, Paulsen clearly knows his setting and paints it beautifully for the reader. He also has a gift for character: as I mentioned above, Robeson is real – he experiences both failure and triumph and responds to each in ways that are authentic and relatable. As a book that centers almost exclusively on one character, Hatchet provides a picture of that character that contains both depth and relevance for the reader.

I loved Hatchet, as did my 11-year old son. It’s a slender volume at only 220 pages and a fast read. There’s much to love including an afterward that gives some insight into the true story upon which the tale is based. Perhaps even better news: Hatchet is part of a series so, if you love it as much as we did, you can immediately embark upon reading such titles as The River, Brian’s Winter, Brian’s Return and Brian’s Hunt. Paulsen is also a prolific writer…the other books (such as DogSong, Woods Runner, Winter Dance and the like) that he has written will provide lots of fodder for young and mature readers who enjoy Hatchet’s focus and style.

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Book Review: York: The Shadow Cipher by Laura Ruby – 4 stars

I had heard such wonderful things about Laura Ruby’s York: The Shadow Cipher! And, knowing that the 2nd book in the series, York: The Clockwork Ghost was releasing on May 14th, I just had to dig into it and find out what all the fuss was about! I really was not disappointed! This book was intriguing and entertaining for me and is a definite winner, in my opinion, for the middle grade/young YA reader!

The Shadow Cipher begins with a flashback to the time when men used walking canes and street lamps were lit by oil. We are introduced to a set of genius twins, The Morningstars, who are responsible for amazing mechanical creations that have changed the face of New York City and the world! Their inventions include everything from mechanical bugs that clean the streets to elevators that can move diagonally. Before the twins died, they created a cipher for the public: solve the riddles and find the treasure! Unfortunately, however, people have been trying to solve the cipher for hundreds of year unsuccessfully!

Enter another set of twins (modern-day Tess and Theo Biedermann) and their friend Jaime Cruz. All 13 years-old, the kids are in a situation where their current apartment building is about to be sold to a wealthy New York real estate magnate. When they intercept a mysterious letter addressed to their grandfather (a famous cipherist who has been trying to solve the puzzle his whole life!) they begin to suspect that there is a second set of clues to the cipher that have, as yet, been undiscovered. (Thus, the title: The Shadow Cipher.) They decide that the only way to save their building is to solve the cipher and find the treasure!

Tons of hijinks ensue…the kids are led all over the city searching for clues related to history, New York City and the Morningstars. While all of that is happening, strange things are occurring in their apartment building…the real estate magnate’s henchman are searching the building, members of their grandfather’s cipher society are getting involved and clues are turning up in unexpected places. Ultimately, the kids’ quest to solve the cipher is exciting and fast-paced, if sometimes a little to dependent on coincidences to drive the plot!

As I’ve mentioned before, I can’t read books out of order so I picked up this one to prepare myself for the release of York: The Clockwork Ghost. Knowing that there was a sequel to The Shadow Cipher somewhat prepared me for a cliffhanger at the end of the book, but I was slightly disappointed about the lack of closure that the book provided. While it left me anxious to find out what happens in the The Clockwork Ghost, I would have preferred a bit more effort to tie up the initial storyline without it. I really don’t like being left hanging! The prevalence of ‘coincidence’ as a plot driver and the lack of a satisfying ending were the only things that kept me from making this a 5-star review!

I must say, I loved Ruby’s writing. Her creation of a ‘better’ New York combined with the descriptions of the New York I know and love were incredibly compelling. She is also a very smart writer: there are tons of nods to history and subtle jokes throughout the book. As a kid, I loved being able to pick up on subtleties that an author embedded in her story. Not much has changed in that regard since then! Finally, the ‘world building’ that Ruby undertakes with her inventions and technological enhancements in the story are impressive. She folds mechanical inventions that do not exist today into the New York that we know and makes the whole thing hang together in a way that is coherent and believable.

Ruby definitely has a feminist agenda of sorts in her book as well. (And don’t get me wrong, I’m ALL for that!) There are many references debunking gender sterotypes and lots of female characters (young and old) who are depicted outside of cultural female norms. Tess and Theo’s mom is a detective while their dad loves to bake, Cricket (a neighborhood 5 year old) is dedicated to all kind of gender-bending in her wardrobe and Tess herself is, by far, the braver and ‘stronger’ of the two twins. As an adult, these feminist-type references were pretty obvious to me but, for the Middle Grade set, I think Ruby does a nice job folding the message seamlessly into the story without making her intentions too overt.

I must also commend Ruby for her characters: Tess, Theo and Jaime are interesting and distinct. Jaime is Latinx and cultural identities are explored occasionally via his relationship with his grandmother. There are sly references to the potential for a budding romance between Tess and Jaime and interesting passages that describe what it’s like to be a twin. While I found the 13 year olds a bit mature…they seem to only make good decisions and have a great deal of freedom to move about the city alone…as individuals, I understood their motivations and found them unique and likeable. Jaime’s struggle with his father’s absence and his identity as an artist were as compelling as Theo’s ‘Rain Main’-like mathmatical abilities and Tess’s struggle with anxiety!

The other characters within the book are, unfortunately, somewhat less distinguishable from one another: there are about 20 neighbors who live in the apartment building and another 10 members of the cipherist society and many of their identities tend to run together. Nonetheless, the important characters seem to distinguish themselves, when necessary. Cricket (as mentioned above) is hilarious and plays a key role in helping the kids with their quest while Mr. Stoop and Mr. Pincher (ridiculously funny names for super tall and super slouched guys) are both evil and idiotic as henchman should be!

Overall, this book has an incredible amount to recommend it. I won’t disclose the ‘message’ that is finally delivered to the kids in the closing chapter of the book as it would go too far in spoiling the ending but, suffice it to say that (despite the book’s lack of closure) there is something to be learned from everything that happens to Tess, Theo and Jaime. Young readers ages 9-12 (and potentially older, in my opinion) as well as adults will enjoy this wild romp of a read that brings a fantastical premise and setting together with some real, determined and lovable characters! I can’t wait to see what The Clockwork Ghost has in store!

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2nd Mama Panda Bear Virtual Book Club Selection: All of Us With Wings by Michelle Ruiz Keil!

Thank you to everyone who voted in my poll for our next read! It was close but All of Us With Wings by Michelle Ruiz Keil is our selection. Don’t forget to dial in to discuss this terrific YA read on July 15th at 8:00pm! More details to come!

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Camp Review: Background Info and Day 1 – Camp Woodward – Action Sports Camp for My PANDA?

Well…we arrived in Woodward, PA yesterday for Camp Woodward and I’ve been dying to tell you about it! Camp Woodward is an ACA-accredited action sports camp for ages 7+. While there are several Camp Woodward locations and they offer camps for several different action sports, my PANDA is attending Scooter Camp at the location in North Central Pennsylvania.

Attending this camp was definitely Spencer’s idea. He had seen lots of YouTube videos of his favorite scooter tricksters (is that what you call them?) at Woodward and knew it was a place that he wanted to go. He’s never done sleepaway camp before and I was a little concerned that he’d back out before the date actually arrived, but, in fact, he seemed to just get more and more excited as we got closer to leaving!

We registered for Week 1 of 2019 Woodward Camp in late 2018 and were offered $100 off the registration fee as first-time campers. All in all, the camp cost us about $1350 for Week 1 (Weeks 2, 11 and 12 are also $1350 while weeks 3 through 10 are $1550…due to popularity, I suppose?) Included in the fee are 6 nights and 7 days of activities/training as well as all meals and most optional recreation activities. Most of the camp options follow that pricing model although some are a bit less. The programs available at Woodward’s PA location are: Gymnastics, Cheer, Dance, Parkour, BMX, Skateboarding, Freestyle BMX, Mountain Biking, Scooter, BMX Racing, Digital Photography, Video Production, Multi-Sport (more on that later,) and Ninja (an American Ninja Warrior-style activity!)

Woodward offers payment plans for their fees…so you can arrange to pay for camp throughout the year up to 30 days before arrival at camp. Otherwise, there is a $300 deposit and the remainder is due prior to arrival. They also offer a ~$100 camp protection plan in case your camper gets sick, hurt, etc. and can’t attend…you’ll get your money back. We rolled the dice and didn’t take advantage of the insurance. We had heard nothing but good things about Woodward and our experience with registration and form completion was a very positive one.

Camp Woodward has a ‘camper account’ for each camper and suggests that each family put at least $200 on that account for their kiddo for the week. It will cover any extra recreation activities the camper wants to participate in, any ‘extra’ food from the canteen and any merchandise they choose to buy during the week. It was super easy to add money to the account and Spencer was given a code to use to access that money when we arrived. Any funds not used and more than $10 are refunded to the form of payment at the end of the week. Anything less than $10 is donated to Woodward’s scholarship program.

Woodward asks for all of the appropriate health, medical and dietary information through their portal prior to arrival. They are staffed with a nurse (more than one nurse?) in their infirmary 24×7 and are completely prepared to administer medication with a doctor’s note on whatever schedule is necessary. As you can imagine, that’s a big deal to a PANDAS family. Also a big deal…they can accommodate dietary restrictions. The cafeteria is amazing with numerous food stations (burgers, pizza, Asian food, Mexican food, etc.) as well as plenty of gluten-free options upon request. The staff is also more than willing (I called prior to our departure) to provide ingredient labels to the kids so that they can determine whether or not something is okay for them to eat. As Spencer does not eat dairy, gluten, corn syrup or food dye, that was particularly important for us!

As I mentioned, Spence has never been away from home for an overnight camp and had some concerns before we left. He was sensitive to the idea of communal showering (apparently not uncommon in this day and age in his age group…I was assured by the Woodward staff) and having to change his clothes in a group setting. When I called to inquire about cabin setup in the weeks prior to camp, I was advised that each cabin has a private shower and that approximately 12-20 kids are housed in each cabin by age group and sport. One 18+ year old counselor is assigned to each cabin. I was amazed to hear that communal showering was not an issue. Obviously, however, the boy is going to have to get over some of his modesty as changing clothes in a group setting with 12-20 boys is simply unavoidable. He mentioned prior to heading out that his plan was to ‘make as many friends as possible as quickly as possible since it’s less embarrassing to change in front of people you know!’ 🙂 Good plan, kid!

Woodward offers some transportation to/from camp that we did not take advantage of. They offer shuttle service from several cities, for a fee: State College airport and bus station, Rockaway, New Jersey, Chicago, IL, Toledo, OH and Cleveland, OH. When we checked in yesterday, I immediately received an email stating that my camper ‘had arrived.’ While it wasn’t a useful email for me, I can imagine that it would be very reassuring for parents who send their kids to camp alone via shuttle or public transportation. I thought it was a very nice touch!

Camp arrival day starts at 9 am on a Sunday…campers can check in anytime between 9 am and 2 pm. We arrived at about noon and were greeted by a staff member who was super enthusiastic and walked us through where to park, check-in, drop off medication at the infirmary and find Spencer’s cabin. We proceeded to the check-in barn and were regularly greeted further by staff members who seemed very excited to meet us and couldn’t wait to tell Spence how exciting it would be to be a first-year camper. Apparently, a lot of kids must stay for multiple weeks as we were asked repeatedly how many weeks he would be at camp!

At registration, all forms had already been completed online so check-in was quick and efficient. Spencer was advised about which cabin he would reside in and shown the cabin on the map. The staff confirmed that we had brought bedding for him (sheets and pillows are not provided…you can either bring your own twin sheets or a sleeping bag or both.) There was also a ‘step and repeat’ set up where I could take his photo and the staff took an identification photo of him (for multiple purposes, I’m sure, but I saw it used to ensure that his account funds were only being used by him) when we arrived.

After that, there was one station to review medical and health info for kids who might be arriving sick or had medical protocols to review. (I had to answer questions about whether or not he felt sick at check-in or had had a fever in the previous week…frankly, I’m not sure what would have happened if I had marked yes but that wasn’t an issue for us!) Once we had reviewed our medical information with the staff and ensured that all parent contact info was correct, we were directed to 3 activity booths. The first allowed S to sign up for a ropes course time during the week, the second housed sign-ups for horse back riding and/or an overnight horseback campout (both an extra fee of $30-$45) and the third offered a professional photo package of your camper in action for $250. I’m a sucker for good photos and buy every photo package available to me so they definitely had their mark on me for the photos. I’ll let you know how that turns out in a subsequent post! Spencer chose to sign up for a ropes course slot and a horseback riding slot but declined the overnight horseback camp out. I’m guessing he’s going to regret that and want to do it next year!

After getting through all of the registration, we were guided to the infirmary. The nurse that we met was extremely helpful, knowledgeable and kind. She spoke primarily to Spencer about his needs and his medication and advised him that a golf cart would be sent around to pick him up first thing each morning and last thing each night to make sure he got his medication. She also asked me a few questions about whether or not he is permitted to take OTC medication (ibuprofen for a headache or something for a bellyache, etc.) I left the infirmary confident that his medical needs would be attended to and Spence left feeling sure that he knew what he needed to do and would have the support he needed.

From there, we got back in the car and parked near his cabin. We were easily able to move his foot locker, sleeping bag, scooter and helmet/pads into the cabin. There, we met Barrett, Spencer’s counselor for the week. He’s from Arizona and seemed to have a good rapport with the boys who had already checked-in. Barrett pointed out the bunks that were still available for Spencer to choose and gave us the pros and cons of each. He was incredibly welcoming to us and answered any and all questions I had. Interestingly, one child who had already checked in spoke up and said, ‘Make sure nobody sees your combination for your foot locker lock. Somebody broke into mine last year and stole my stuff.’ Barrett immediately broke in and said, ‘Spencer doesn’t need to worry about that, X. Nobody will be stealing anything in this cabin!’ I appreciated both his willingness to reassure Spencer on that topic and his determination to ensure that everybody behaves appropriately while he’s there.

While we were in the cabin, I had a chance to check out the bathroom. There was a single shower with some soap supplies in it, a urinal and a toilet. It was nice enough though I’m sure it will be utterly gross at the end of the week with twelve 11-year old boys using it! 🙂 Once we had met Barrett, Spencer had picked out a bunk, met a couple of other campers and I had put some sheets on his chosen bunk, we headed out to The Canteen to check out the available merchandise. Of course, Spencer was adamant that he needed a hoodie and a hat!

The Canteen is amazing…apparently it’s either brand new or newly refurbished. It contains a shop that reminded me of a small Notre Dame bookstore and offered everything from Woodward-themed sweatshirts and hats to raincoats and bathing suits. The prices were to be expected…nothing different than what you would find in a campus bookstore and easily chargeable to his camper account. We also checked out the food in the Canteen and discovered that they offered several natural, corn syrup and dye free options for snacks. They also offered tons of junk too…but whatever. The Canteen also contains what appears to be a radio station…I’m not sure exactly how it is used at camp but it was pretty impressive!

I didn’t get to see all of the facilities while I was at Woodward for drop-off but the ramps, pools, obstacles courses, etc. that I did see were amazing! The camp itself is nestled in the hills of PA and it’s both beautiful and state of the art!

Another thing I noticed during drop-off was that many kids had already checked in and were running around camp in pairs or groups using the facilities by themselves. While that made me a little nervous, I appreciated that the camp is safe enough that groups of 11 year old boys can come and go freely on the grounds without fear.

Shortly after we purchased Spencer’s hoodie and hat, we returned to his cabin and he was ready for me to depart. I got a hug and a farewell and was back on the road. I was surprised, but he didn’t express even a moment’s hesitation about me leaving and was off with some new ‘buds’ before I could get out of the parking lot. While we definitely met the ‘spazzy kid’ (the one who warned us about theft) in the cabin, there were a number of other kids who all seemed to be less intense and were friendly and doing their own things. One boy was sitting in his bunk reading a book when I left! Meeting some of the boys left me reassured that all kinds of kids attend Woodward and are welcomed and accepted!

I’m staying in nearby College Station, PA while Spence is at camp this week. Him being a first-time camper and having a medical condition made me a bit anxious before we arrived. I have the opportunity to work remotely and am using it to be nearby without intruding. Having been there during check-in, I’m pretty sure it’s completely unnecessary but it reassures me that I can get there quickly, if needed, for any reason.

I received my first text from Spence at camp last night. (Campers are allowed to bring phones but are not permitted to use them during ‘programming’ or after ‘lights out.’) It said, ‘I found some natural strawberry/blueberry drink that I can have!’ (Big news for a PANDAS kid) ‘And…I met a new friend! His name is Patrick. He has one arm and can scooter!!!’ Based on that text alone, I’m sure Spencer is going to be just fine!

I’ll provide more updates as the week goes along but, at this point, I’m incredibly impressed with Camp Woodward and super excited for Spencer to experience this week. From what I’ve seen, the program at Woodward is going to be amazing and the staff and counselors really have it together! It’s an opportunity I would highly recommend for any kid interested in action sports…and would certainly recommend for a PANDAS kid with those interests!

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Book Review: The Pale-Faced Lie by David Crow – 3.5 stars

Boy…if you think your family puts the ‘fun in dysfunctional,’ you haven’t seen anything until you read The Pale-Faced Lie by David Crow! This book is the second one I’ve read this year (the first being Tara Westover’s Educated) that has left me speechless about just how broken and toxic families can be! Well-written and brutally honest, I enjoyed The Pale-Faced Lie despite the fact that it is, in many places, as uncomfortable as a book can be!

Crow grows up on an Indian reservation in Arizona and details his life with an emotionally broken mother, a narcissistic, dangerous, unstable father and his 3 siblings. The stories in the book are almost too unbelievable to be real and yet, so incredible that I can’t imagine Crow getting away with writing such things about his family if they weren’t true! The author’s note details the lengths he went to to ensure that his recollections were accurate and, it seems, many of the stories included were actually communicated or corroborated by the broken parents about whom he tells them.

From the very start of this book, the reader is drawn in by Crow’s accounts of his father’s attempts to coerce the 4 children into leaving their home and abandoning their mother without warning. The ongoing battles between mother and father and painful situations that the father puts the children (particularly David) in are hard to read…trigger warnings abound with regard to domestic violence, abuse, language, etc. Yet, the sheer audacity of Crow’s father’s willingness to verbally and physically abuse and gaslight his children is almost too much to look away from. Crow details the various siblings’ responses to this treatment and it’s an incredible study in psychology – each child seems to deal with the family craziness in his/her own unique way.

For his part, Crow is both his parents’ pet and their preferred victim. The multiple decade account of their behavior leaves the reader wondering how David, also beset by a learning disability and hearing loss, survived long enough and developed well enough to ever write a book! Yet, the book itself is clearly written and the story well told. It lags a bit around the time that David goes to high school…the reader has, at that point, heard so many unbelievable tales of abuse and lies that emotional fatigue begins to set in. The story picks up again almost immediately, however, in Part 4, as Crow graduates college and begins to assert himself as an adult in the political world of Capitol Hill.

Personally, I found myself torn between rooting for Crow and cringing at the ways that he participated in his own heartbreaking story. I was hard pressed to remind myself that this child’s home life was so broken that he could not possibly have known another way to live. I struggled with blaming him for some of his behaviors (just as his parents do) and having to pull myself up short to remember that Crow was doing what he could, with what he had, simply to survive.

I wish that more time had been dedicated to Crow as an adult. The end of the book felt a bit as if he had reached his page count and needed to wrap it up. While he becomes both a husband and a father, only a few lines are spent acknowledging those facts. Given his childhood, how he engaged as both a husband and a father would likely have been extremely interesting.

Crow’s story is definitely one worth reading. The simple, raw nature of the story will pull you in and leave you breathless for a family of children who struggled to withstand some of the most pronounced functioning mental illness I have ever read about. While the book is, by its very nature, horrifying, I found myself unable to put it down. When I reached the final page, I found myself both astounded at what Crow had endured and proud of his ultimate ability to push forward in a life that was, at times, apparently filled with little more than pain. If you enjoyed Tara Westover’s Educated, this is most certainly a book for you. A Pale-Faced Lie is Crow’s own story, however, and worth a read from anyone who wants to understand human nature and incredible resilience.

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